I am worried about Jamie. I hear...weird sounds coming from his room at night. I know he has a tendency for nightmares but it actually sounds as if he's like...choking to death or something. And I only ever see him at REALLY inopportune times where I can't ask him how he is.
Everything is SO FUCKED UP ARUUUGGGHHH.
And SHE keeps giving me these really...significant looks at school. What is up with that?! You made it quite clear you don't trust or want me. Stop...LOOKING!
None of it matters anyway. I'm not here anymore. All I can do is make sure Jamie and Jude are ok. And that Ry and Slink are okay too, though I am pretty sure they'll kick me and say they can take care of themselves. Which they can. I just....taking care of someone means I can put off taking care of myself.
And when I finally do take care of myself, I'm not sure who I'll be taking care of, and that scares me the most.