September 9th, 2008

Erin makes me :|, Fuck.Off.

Public Post, but beware, it contains oPiNiOnS!

Far be it for me to tell anyone how to think or what to feel. I have no inclination to do so. But reading all the crap about the American Election made me want to say how I feel. About this Sarah Palin woman who things she's an awesome feminist or whatever the fuck it is she thinks. Just because she looks good in her clothes when McCain looks like a bald raisin doesn't mean she's got her priorities straight in my opinion. Her priorities are here if you want to have a read...

She opposes gay marriage. You know what, whatever, the UK allows civil unions because we're obviously more civilised as a society, but it DOES bother me. I love my girls just as much as she loves her husband. Why shouldn't I get a wedding day, hmm?

That's not the issue I'm most upset about, however.

Palin is pro-life and is opposed to abortion in all cases (including rape and incest) except when necessary to save the life of the mother. In 2006, while running for governor, Palin was asked what she would do if her own daughter were raped and became pregnant; she responded that she would "choose life." (Yet she promotes capitol punishment for rapists? Pro-life WHAT?!)

Fuck am I glad I am not that woman's daughter. Who is seventeen and pregnant, by the way.

Here is where I'm brutally honest with you all. This 'fame' thing kinda crept up on me. It's weird to me that I have so many people reading the words I write, though I deeply appreciate every single one of you. Which is why I don't want to hide this any more. Especially if it helps someone understand, even a little, why this woman is dangerous.

I was raped early this year. I was taken from backstage after one of my Ethereal Facade concerts, and raped by more than one man. I was lucky enough to get away, thanks to wonderful friends who refused to leave me at the mercy of such horrible people, but I didn't get away scott free. I ended up pregnant, and deciding what to do was the most difficult decision I've ever made in my life. In the end, I knew I wasn't ready to have a child. I have too many demands on my time, and too many things I want to do in my life before I go down that road. It wasn't just selfish either. I wouldn't be able to care for the baby the way the baby deserved. I wouldn't be able to forget what happened. I'm not saying 'yay abortion' because there are days I hate myself for it. Honestly. What I am trying to get across, is that this was my choice. I got to decide what happened to my body. After having that right taken away from me by horrible men, I got back my right to choose. If I had chosen to keep the baby, then it would have been because I wanted it, not because someone in an office somewhere told me I had to.

If I had been forced to keep that baby, it would have been like being raped all over again. It can't happen. It just can't. I am not against being pro-choice. If you would have chosen life in this situation, good on you. What I am against is forcing other people into that situation without giving a damn about their feelings because YOU think you know what's 'right'.

So now you know. I've shared myself with you. Tell me what you think, what you feel, if you agree, disagree If you've been there, know I understand. I'll listen. I respect and love you.

♥ ~ Deirdre Rose