May 27th, 2006

To Die For

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Right, so after a long deliberation, I had decided to go with Lee's idea and name myself Double D Gallagher.

Okay I lied, I still have no idea. SOMEONE HELP ME! You're all fired ;)

And re hired because I love you.

So I woke up at 5:30 this morning, as I always do, and someone else had already made coffee! So I made myself tea instead and sat in the living room with my cats. Our morning ritual. Mmmmm. Except that in the middle of it, little Arco decided to come in and chase the cats around and so yes, my peaceful morning ritual was disrupted by Renee's insane puppybullet.

That dog is crazy!

And he ripped the newspaper in two. So I read the TV Guide instead. I am so sophisticated!

Equivalency Exam coming up and then auditions and then rehearsals. YAY!

And I went to see Liss this morning as well...and it was lovely :)
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Dance the Ghost with Me

Private-now filtered to those in the know


You can all cook your own dinner and shove it up your arses.

Okay, that's a lie. I could never say it. That's why this is private. I'm SORRY I cling to people when I fear I'll lose them. Because the truth is...I am going to lose them. Each and every single one of them will grow old and die and I'll still be Deirdre. Little Dee. I'll always have my Boys but right now they don't even have each can I expect they'll have me?

And I can't leave them now just because it will hurt later. Because Peter proved that the only thing that helps is being around the people I love. Even if I will lose them all, I still have them now.

But I almost lost Slink today. And she's one of the ones who should understand. But she doesn't. So I guess I'll go for a walk and stop crowding her. I'll lose myself in a book and a coffee in a cafe, and try to forget future that is imminent.

Oh god...I'm going to lose Renee and Liss and..oh GOD Pierre. And Evey. And Slink and Jude and Owen and oh god...everyone.

Oh..oh GOD. I am going to lose Peter.

What the HELL will I do when I lose Peter?!

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