My god...there is fighting going on in my house and I don't know what to do and my ghost is hiding in my attic AGAIN.
Even the cats are hiding under my bed....oh fuck. I hope my mam doesn't hear! She'll go see what's going on. That won't help.
I am a terrible person. Terrible!
And today started out so well.
I love Melissa. I am IN love with Melissa. And I am in love with Renee.
AUGH shoot me now. Not that it would do any good.
Del mentioned I should pierce my nipple. Renee would love that. She really would. But I am not going to. Why? Because Melissa didn't like it. *bangs head on desk repeatedly* I thought I was over this. I let Renee make the decision so I didn't have to. Which was a pretty low thing to do anyway, really. God I suck.
Melissa said she had a belly button piercing and it turned me on. OH how it turned me on.
And I saw Scarlett's eyes today. She loves Renee. She wants her. I would think I should just let Renee and Scarlett be together but...Renee made her choice, didn't she? She decided. I know she loves Scarlett. But she chose me and there must be a reason. I can't leave her now, no matter how much I want to be with Melissa.
If only she'd never run away...