Something is scratching it's way out..

To Those in the Know

Wed, 23 Dec 2009 02:57:37 GMT

ME TOO OMG BABIES ASLEEP LJ TIMEZ NAO

January - I went to see my Dad alone. For the first time in like ever. And I forgave him. For a lot of reasons, but the main one being he's so different now. And we had a really good time and I was there for like SIX HOURS. That was awesome. I'm glad I had that.

February - I'm not doing the meme thing. My dad's gone. He's probably evil again.

So you know. Look out. Yeah, he wasn't evil. Whoops. And what a change from the previous month...

March - I just met my little cousin, Parker. He's awesome and eight. And hey, Jinxy. I have an Aunt May and her son's name is Parker and I thought you'd like that... Too bad it's not Peter, eh? I love Parker! He's so funny. And American.

April - Hey, Rockstars!! After wonderful recording session with my darling in_spectre_mors another friend of mine and I decided to get away from dreary old England for a few days! Where to, you say? Why...dreary new New York! My touring posts are epic....

May - Hahaha!! Okay, Flynn and Quinn came over and Flynn just got so drunk he went all...incredibly Irish on me. Not that he's usually not Irish. But oh my god you should hear it!! His accent! The words that are coming out my my calm Flynny's mouth!! Quinn says this is how he talked back in Whitehead when he was a teenage thug. But it's awesome. I can't understand a word of it! Except every once in a while he says "me fither" which I'm pretty sure means his father... And he keeps calling me 'Swee'hear'' Which is a dramatic underusing of t's! The first few were too personal or only for certain people, so here. Drunken Flynny.

June - On 7 June the BNP won the first of two seats in the European Parliament, when Andrew Brons was elected in the Yorkshire and Humber area by 10% of the vote. Nick Griffin was then elected for the North West region. Griffin stated that it was "a great victory... we go on from here." Meanwhile, the Labour and Conservative parties both referred to it as a "sad moment".

Well shit. Apparently electing racist fuckwits is awesome? Yeah.

July - Okay, so... Flynn and I were out and about and we got jumped by these arseholes. Or Flynn did. I think they were trying to separate us. Flynn was doing just fine because he's Flynn, but I flipped out and moved to protect him and I sort of...had a wingpop. And the fuckers ran away but fuck, they saw it. I forgot about that...

August - Aaaaaaahhhhh bad.

I'm still bummed about the Moscow show, but holding my head high and moving on... (Shhhh, we no longer speak it's name...)

September - http://failblog.wordpress.com/files/2009/08/fail-owned-gangsta-fail.jpg I dunno...I figure it takes a pretty tough guy to admit Efron-love.

IT WAS GOOD ENOUGH FOR VOLDEMORT!!!! Long live A Very Potter Musical!!

October - Right. Time to be practical and things. Tomorrow EF is off touring with PT, and then I'm leaving for the US with Spectre, so there's things I have to take care of now.

November - It's starting to get harder to sing every night for hours. I think my lungs are getting crowded out by children. It's a good thing I'm crazy loud. AND I got good news yesterday so nothing can get me down today :D

December - My room is clean. So I can go home now. I'll go tomorrow. Last night I was in bed with Peter and Flynn, and I think they were both spooning me... Which is quite strange, I'll have you know. Strange and AWESOME.

Friends Only

Sat, 19 Dec 2009 09:51:39 GMT

OH MY GOD I HAD BABIES AND THEY ARE THE BEST THINGS EVER AND NOW RENEE IS AWAKE COME SEE THE BABIES RENEE BECAUSE MY WATER BROKE ON YOUR BED!!!

:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:DDDDDDD

Friends Only

Thu, 17 Dec 2009 10:29:58 GMT

WHY WON'T THESE CHILDREN BE BORN SO I CAN FUCKING HELP OH MY GOD THE WORLD SUCKS BALLS!

I'm going to go sleep with Renee and y'all can blow me.

Friends Only

Sat, 05 Dec 2009 09:45:06 GMT

My room is clean. So I can go home now. I'll go tomorrow. Last night I was in bed with Peter and Flynn, and I think they were both spooning me... Which is quite strange, I'll have you know.

I am ready to not be pregnant anymore! Just in case anyone was wondering. You know. It's not so nice now. Blah.

Thu, 26 Nov 2009 09:45:26 GMT

"The world's a hard place, Danny. It don't care. It don't hate you and me, but it don't love us, either. Terrible things happen in the world and they're things no one can explain. Good people die in bad, painful ways and leave the folks that love them all alone. Sometimes it seems like it's only the bad people who stay healthy and prosper. The world don't love you, but your momma does and so do I. You're a good boy. You grieve for your daddy, and when you feel you have to cry over what happened to him, you go in a closet or under your covers and cry until it's all out of you again. That's what a good son has to do. But see that you get on. That's your job in this hard world, to keep your love alive and see that you get on, no matter what. Pull your act together and just go on."

~Stephen King - The Shining

Friends Only

Sun, 22 Nov 2009 10:55:37 GMT

I'm staying at Peter's for a little while. I'm letting him pamper me while I learn what it's like to have so many kids you don't know quite what's happened or where the time has gone but they are certainly everywhere... Anna and I built a fort and then there was a screaming (happy screaming) almost-three-year-old in it, throwing pillows everywhere and it's a good thing Anna didn't care. And then Caleb joined in and Peter just watched from the doorway with this bemused 'this is how it goes' look on his face.

And now I have my lovely bed and my lovely big fatty cake and my lovely purple lap top and Petey is curled up at the foot of my bed because Sylvia is here and she's playing with Sinny and Petey feels left out. It's pretty nice this whole 'being pampered' thing.

The tour ended well, and I enjoyed it. Adrina was amazing. My housemates are wonderful. And eventually I'll be okay with being home again. I just need...time. Definite time.

And waking up and not finding Flynn there is really weird.

Sun, 08 Nov 2009 05:57:45 GMT

Last night in Canada and can I just say I LOVE EDMONTON! I JUST BOUGHT SO MUCH CRAP AND PLAYED IN A WAVE POOL INSIDE A SHOPPING CENTRE HOLY CRAP!

AND I MIGHT HAVE HAD TOO MANY ORANGE JULIUSSSES. JULII? ORANGE JULIUSx34!!!!!s! EXCEPT STRAWBERRY AND TRIPLE BEERRYY AND NOT ORANGE!

WOW SUGARRRRRR!

HOT DOSGS!

Friends Only

Mon, 02 Nov 2009 03:33:09 GMT

Oh my GOD that was the most embarrassing thing ever. I thought the babies were coming because everything down there HURT so poor Flynny who was in soaking wet clothes from smoking his cancer sticks outside in the rain had to rush me to the hospital and stand by my side for hours and it wasn't the babies, it was GAS.

I hate myself so much right now...

I am so glad he didn't call anyone so no one ELSE was panicking... Argh.

Hi, I'm fine. Embarrassed as all hell, but fine.

Happy Halloweeeeeen, Rockstars!

Sun, 01 Nov 2009 06:04:18 GMT

It's starting to get harder to sing every night for hours. I think my lungs are getting crowded out by children. It's a good thing I'm crazy loud. AND I got good news yesterday so nothing can get me down today :D

HELLLOOOO MONTREAL!!

My costume was me not pregnant which is why you get face pictures. I'm beautiful, shut up!

My costume is so convincing from the neck up!

Hahhaa he has rasta hair! And I do not know what he is doing there... I'm a vocalist.

Awww! :D Singing a fan's guitar. I love that jacket.

Timothy laying down the law.

And then breaking it!

Serenity finding costumes in an antique store!

And then dying on the hotel stairs because we walked for MILES. And she's only walking for one :|

Flynny, wigging about a crowd. Hhahahaa! I love his face! He wasn't actually wigging, he was in the middle of actually talking!

Last night, he dressed up like this. Yes. This is Flynn. He was on stage like this. Yes. Yes. In Canada.

*snort* he looks like he's going to kill me... And this isn't even the best picture because Flynn didn't go like this to the party. He went as below.

HE'S TRISTAN! HAHAHHA BEST PIC EVER BEST PIC EVER! *can die happy*

I love my peeps :D

Friends Only

Sat, 31 Oct 2009 03:58:51 GMT

MY BOOBS LEAKED ON STAGE AND I CAN'T STOP CRYING! :(:(:(

Thu, 29 Oct 2009 04:31:48 GMT

It's my birthday. I'm 21, pregnant, and alone. BUT I have the best friends I could ask for, and a pretty kickin' job.

Oh. And I'm in New York City and currently cuddling my Charlottepants. She came to visit me for my birthday and this is pure awesomeness.

After the gig tonight, the band is going to a party and we plan to rock the city until morning. I can't think of a better way to spend my birthday. Well, I can. But this is the best way that's actually possible.

:)

To Spectre and Thomas

Wed, 28 Oct 2009 21:21:04 GMT

Did you like the thingy?! I stopped reading that entry after you started playing 'Tickle me, Thomas' while on LJ, you freaks.

WAS IT GOOD!? Thomas I sent you the other one too, I don't know why it didn't get there at the same time. But you know...rest assured, you'll get yours eventually!

To Those in the Know

Sun, 25 Oct 2009 06:36:50 GMT

At the risk of sounding ungrateful...why do you always have to be so...ready to throw yourself into danger? I just want you back so you can tell me how much you love me.

That's what I need right now.

I would have posted that just to Peter, but I figure lots of other people are feeling the same. And part of my problem is keeping things to myself anyway. I'm sad. I miss Kaitie and David and Alessa, and I miss Peter and I'm scared for him and Aly and Thomas and it's all just pppttthhhhhppthhh and I'm getting by but blah.

Seriously. Blah.

Sat, 24 Oct 2009 10:49:45 GMT

Hi, Rockstars! We're in Albany, NY today and oh my GOD it's cold. Still, Flynny is in a rather incredible mood because we have a friend from London visiting! Serenity and Timothy have been mocking me in all my pregnantness, proving who can drink more, and we get our lovely Mummy with us for a few more days. She's staying until Halloween!

My birthday is on October 29th, which is our NYC show! I'll be twenty-one, legally allowed to drink in the US of A, and still unable to imbibe! Thus is the wages of pregnancy. It's not going to stop us partying though! Costume parties beckon and you Just KNOW we'll go all out. After the gig, of COURSE. Hope to see you there!

It's our Tristan! Frontman of the amazing Outdance the Devil, and a dear friend.

Trust me, he's kissing the thingy, not the lady. Not that she's not lovely!

This is Flynn ALL DAY TODAY, proof he can indeed grin. And look a little manic while doing so...

My bestest friend, backstage in Boston!

I love this one because he looks like he's kissing the mic. THAT'S A LOT OF KISSING, SPECTREFACE!

HAHHA! Yeah...he didn't know I was taking a photo. As it goes with MOST of the photos I take of the boys. And yes, they are usually giving me this look.

Serenity proves she is multi-talented in Florida. And yes, that'd be Timothy in the reflection.

Awwwwww ♥

Serenity has a logical suggestion for hatas.

Rules for posting photos while pregnant. Wear loose-fitting clothes (even while dancing in grapes) and then lie about when the photos was taken... :D

And then post photos of your earlier exploits which have nothing to do with the tour, and pass them off as recent. Incidentally, this is from my theatre and yes, I am a knob.

Sun, 18 Oct 2009 08:06:36 GMT

It's been two years since the fire at Digital Anachronism studios. Seems like forever ago. Only two years.

I'm feeling blue, rock stars. I did want to say thank you so much to those of you who sent me messages of love and kindness and sympathy. Losing Kait has been the worst thing I have ever gone through. But you have all been so wonderful. The amount of love we, as a band, receive from all of you, is nothing short of extraordinary. To those of you who hang around afterwards to hug and shake hands and talk...thank you too. You're what is keeping me going right now. You and these people.

Please welcome Serenity! She's a foxy lady and she knows how to work it.

That's our girl!

Timothy being arty.

Timothy being creepy... I most certainly did NOT lock him on my balcony and then do a 'I'm not letting you in hahaha' dance while he watched through the sliding glass doors and then take pictures of it. Honestly.

Spectre, checking out the goods

And pronouncing them good!

Look, I'm somewhat a little bit pregnant! This picture is not current. WOW not even a little bit.

This one, however, is. YOU CAN'T SEE MY BELLY!

My Flynny, without whom I don't know how I would get through the day. Here he is pouting because I was taking pictures and not resting. He is such a mother hen!

Come on, People, is he not the yummiest?!

Filtered to Flynn, Spectre, Thomas and Timothy

Wed, 14 Oct 2009 10:00:51 GMT

KAT JUST ASKED ME IF I WANTED TO HAVE SEX!

CAN I KILL HER?!

To Those in the Know

Sun, 11 Oct 2009 08:32:52 GMT

THE ENTIRE WORLD IS FILLED WITH WTFERY!

Friends Only

Sun, 04 Oct 2009 05:10:20 GMT

Right. Time to be practical and things. Tomorrow EF is off touring with PT, and then I'm leaving for the US with Spectre, so there's things I have to take care of now.

Kait left everything to me. Everything. Which means the Sommersby estate is now mine. I'm not planning to mess with it, but Amanda left to go back to Ireland which means...pretty much poor Gordon lives there alone. If anyone wants in, there's like...four freaking empty bedrooms in the thing. A pool, a garage...yeah. Have at it. Let me know.

Uhm...there's also the motorcade. Yeah, Mr Simeon collected cars. And there's like...thirty. The vintage taxi is MINE MINE MINE MINE and I want the red Bentley too, but the rest of them...look, if you want one...whatever. There's rolls royces and...other...things. I show shit all about cars. They have been sitting for a few years now though. Since he died. So...Del? Want a job? Making sure the cars still run'd be good. And hey, you can have one of them too.

Anyway. I'm not hiding any more, so...that was kind of right in time.

Filtered to Spectre

Mon, 28 Sep 2009 10:57:48 GMT

Flynny's with Quinn because his surgery is tomorrow and I just quit EF because I can't do it because Kait was part of it and now I feel really bad about that and the babies won't stop and Kait's not here to hold me and tell me everything will be okay and she can't get my herbal tea and I just really need you because I'm hiding in Flynn's room.

Can I stay in your bed tonight?

...with you there too...

Filtered to Pierre

Mon, 28 Sep 2009 10:54:50 GMT

I'm so sorry, Pierre. I had to say this to you first. I don't think I can continue with Ethereal Facade. And since you and I started it what seems like forever ago, I thought I should tell you before anyone else. It was your baby and together we made something really special. But without Kait, I can't. If she had actually done anything more with Spectre, I wouldn't be able to do that either. Making music together was just...such incredible magic and if I stay with EF it will just make me think of her and I can't.

I am so sorry. I loved making music with you too and I hate to do it. I just have to.

If you really need me to be there for that tour in...whenever it was, I can't remember, I can try. If you need me.

I love you.

Mon, 21 Sep 2009 12:02:40 GMT

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uiXa4sA67YE&feature=PlayList&p=68BDB60E311F1971&index=0&playnext=1

Go there and listen. Just listen.

I have been here many times before
I hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Ouch

I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
Lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Deirdre's Thoughts

Fri, 18 Sep 2009 09:00:13 GMT

23:05 Yes, my girlfriend IS joining the band. And no, I did not get her the place. #
23:05 She auditioned like everyone else. #

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Friends Only

Sun, 13 Sep 2009 09:55:04 GMT

I know it's a crappy time, but I hope this makes someone smile.

Kait and I are engaged. We're going to have a wedding after the tour and the babies. I found out her name can be on the birth certificate if we're legally together, so we might do a quickie thing first and have the wedding later.

I want to look hot in my wedding dress, and pregnancy is so not hot.

Anyway. There's that. Back to looking.

To Those in the Know

Mon, 07 Sep 2009 07:19:29 GMT

Does anyone know what happened with Tasha? Peter called me, flipping out, but I didn't understand a word of it and now he won't answer his phone.

What's going on?

I am too pregnant for this shit now!

Friends Only

Fri, 04 Sep 2009 05:30:02 GMT

WILL ALL OF MY BABY DADDIES PLEASE STOP ALMOST DYING!

And don't be smartarses and really die either, or I'll be pissed off and go Metal Pregnant Woman on your arse.

For fuck's sake. I am fat and uncomfortable, DON'T TEMPT ME!

OHMIGOD Sylvia just did the CUTEST THING! Hhahahhahahaa dogs.