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[Nov. 26th, 2009|08:44 pm] |
"The world's a hard place, Danny. It don't care. It don't hate you and me, but it don't love us, either. Terrible things happen in the world and they're things no one can explain. Good people die in bad, painful ways and leave the folks that love them all alone. Sometimes it seems like it's only the bad people who stay healthy and prosper. The world don't love you, but your momma does and so do I. You're a good boy. You grieve for your daddy, and when you feel you have to cry over what happened to him, you go in a closet or under your covers and cry until it's all out of you again. That's what a good son has to do. But see that you get on. That's your job in this hard world, to keep your love alive and see that you get on, no matter what. Pull your act together and just go on."
~Stephen King - The Shining |
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[Nov. 22nd, 2009|09:55 pm] |
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I'm staying at Peter's for a little while. I'm letting him pamper me while I learn what it's like to have so many kids you don't know quite what's happened or where the time has gone but they are certainly everywhere... Anna and I built a fort and then there was a screaming (happy screaming) almost-three-year-old in it, throwing pillows everywhere and it's a good thing Anna didn't care. And then Caleb joined in and Peter just watched from the doorway with this bemused 'this is how it goes' look on his face.
And now I have my lovely bed and my lovely big fatty cake and my lovely purple lap top and Petey is curled up at the foot of my bed because Sylvia is here and she's playing with Sinny and Petey feels left out. It's pretty nice this whole 'being pampered' thing.
The tour ended well, and I enjoyed it. Adrina was amazing. My housemates are wonderful. And eventually I'll be okay with being home again. I just need...time. Definite time.
And waking up and not finding Flynn there is really weird. |
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[Nov. 8th, 2009|04:53 pm] |
Last night in Canada and can I just say I LOVE EDMONTON! I JUST BOUGHT SO MUCH CRAP AND PLAYED IN A WAVE POOL INSIDE A SHOPPING CENTRE HOLY CRAP!
AND I MIGHT HAVE HAD TOO MANY ORANGE JULIUSSSES. JULII? ORANGE JULIUSx34!!!!!s! EXCEPT STRAWBERRY AND TRIPLE BEERRYY AND NOT ORANGE!
WOW SUGARRRRRR!
HOT DOSGS! |
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[Nov. 2nd, 2009|02:31 pm] |
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Oh my GOD that was the most embarrassing thing ever. I thought the babies were coming because everything down there HURT so poor Flynny who was in soaking wet clothes from smoking his cancer sticks outside in the rain had to rush me to the hospital and stand by my side for hours and it wasn't the babies, it was GAS.
I hate myself so much right now...
I am so glad he didn't call anyone so no one ELSE was panicking... Argh.
Hi, I'm fine. Embarrassed as all hell, but fine. |
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| Happy Halloweeeeeen, Rockstars! |
[Nov. 1st, 2009|04:44 pm] |
It's starting to get harder to sing every night for hours. I think my lungs are getting crowded out by children. It's a good thing I'm crazy loud. AND I got good news yesterday so nothing can get me down today :D
HELLLOOOO MONTREAL!!
( Best costumes ever. )
I love my peeps :D |
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[Oct. 31st, 2009|02:57 pm] |
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MY BOOBS LEAKED ON STAGE AND I CAN'T STOP CRYING! :(:(:( |
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[Oct. 29th, 2009|03:30 pm] |
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It's my birthday. I'm 21, pregnant, and alone. BUT I have the best friends I could ask for, and a pretty kickin' job.
Oh. And I'm in New York City and currently cuddling my Charlottepants. She came to visit me for my birthday and this is pure awesomeness.
After the gig tonight, the band is going to a party and we plan to rock the city until morning. I can't think of a better way to spend my birthday. Well, I can. But this is the best way that's actually possible.
:) |
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| To Spectre and Thomas |
[Oct. 29th, 2009|08:21 am] |
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Did you like the thingy?! I stopped reading that entry after you started playing 'Tickle me, Thomas' while on LJ, you freaks.
WAS IT GOOD!? Thomas I sent you the other one too, I don't know why it didn't get there at the same time. But you know...rest assured, you'll get yours eventually! |
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| To Those in the Know |
[Oct. 25th, 2009|05:32 pm] |
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( I miss you )
At the risk of sounding ungrateful...why do you always have to be so...ready to throw yourself into danger? I just want you back so you can tell me how much you love me.
That's what I need right now.
I would have posted that just to Peter, but I figure lots of other people are feeling the same. And part of my problem is keeping things to myself anyway. I'm sad. I miss Kaitie and David and Alessa, and I miss Peter and I'm scared for him and Aly and Thomas and it's all just pppttthhhhhppthhh and I'm getting by but blah.
Seriously. Blah. |
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[Oct. 24th, 2009|09:35 pm] |
Hi, Rockstars! We're in Albany, NY today and oh my GOD it's cold. Still, Flynny is in a rather incredible mood because we have a friend from London visiting! Serenity and Timothy have been mocking me in all my pregnantness, proving who can drink more, and we get our lovely Mummy with us for a few more days. She's staying until Halloween!
My birthday is on October 29th, which is our NYC show! I'll be twenty-one, legally allowed to drink in the US of A, and still unable to imbibe! Thus is the wages of pregnancy. It's not going to stop us partying though! Costume parties beckon and you Just KNOW we'll go all out. After the gig, of COURSE. Hope to see you there!
( What will she give us next?! ) |
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[Oct. 18th, 2009|06:16 pm] |
It's been two years since the fire at Digital Anachronism studios. Seems like forever ago. Only two years.
I'm feeling blue, rock stars. I did want to say thank you so much to those of you who sent me messages of love and kindness and sympathy. Losing Kait has been the worst thing I have ever gone through. But you have all been so wonderful. The amount of love we, as a band, receive from all of you, is nothing short of extraordinary. To those of you who hang around afterwards to hug and shake hands and talk...thank you too. You're what is keeping me going right now. You and these people.
( These ones right here ) |
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| To Those in the Know |
[Oct. 11th, 2009|07:32 pm] |
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THE ENTIRE WORLD IS FILLED WITH WTFERY! |
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[Oct. 4th, 2009|04:02 pm] |
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Right. Time to be practical and things. Tomorrow EF is off touring with PT, and then I'm leaving for the US with Spectre, so there's things I have to take care of now.
Kait left everything to me. Everything. Which means the Sommersby estate is now mine. I'm not planning to mess with it, but Amanda left to go back to Ireland which means...pretty much poor Gordon lives there alone. If anyone wants in, there's like...four freaking empty bedrooms in the thing. A pool, a garage...yeah. Have at it. Let me know.
Uhm...there's also the motorcade. Yeah, Mr Simeon collected cars. And there's like...thirty. The vintage taxi is MINE MINE MINE MINE and I want the red Bentley too, but the rest of them...look, if you want one...whatever. There's rolls royces and...other...things. I show shit all about cars. They have been sitting for a few years now though. Since he died. So...Del? Want a job? Making sure the cars still run'd be good. And hey, you can have one of them too.
Anyway. I'm not hiding any more, so...that was kind of right in time. |
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| Filtered to Spectre |
[Sep. 28th, 2009|08:54 pm] |
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Flynny's with Quinn because his surgery is tomorrow and I just quit EF because I can't do it because Kait was part of it and now I feel really bad about that and the babies won't stop and Kait's not here to hold me and tell me everything will be okay and she can't get my herbal tea and I just really need you because I'm hiding in Flynn's room.
Can I stay in your bed tonight?
...with you there too... |
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| Filtered to Pierre |
[Sep. 28th, 2009|08:51 pm] |
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I'm so sorry, Pierre. I had to say this to you first. I don't think I can continue with Ethereal Facade. And since you and I started it what seems like forever ago, I thought I should tell you before anyone else. It was your baby and together we made something really special. But without Kait, I can't. If she had actually done anything more with Spectre, I wouldn't be able to do that either. Making music together was just...such incredible magic and if I stay with EF it will just make me think of her and I can't.
I am so sorry. I loved making music with you too and I hate to do it. I just have to.
If you really need me to be there for that tour in...whenever it was, I can't remember, I can try. If you need me.
I love you. |
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[Sep. 21st, 2009|10:02 pm] |
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uiXa4sA67YE&feature=PlayList&p=68BDB60E311F1971&index=0&playnext=1
Go there and listen. Just listen.
I have been here many times before
I hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me
Ouch
I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
Lost myself again and I feel unsafe
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me |
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[Sep. 13th, 2009|07:50 pm] |
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I know it's a crappy time, but I hope this makes someone smile.
Kait and I are engaged. We're going to have a wedding after the tour and the babies. I found out her name can be on the birth certificate if we're legally together, so we might do a quickie thing first and have the wedding later.
I want to look hot in my wedding dress, and pregnancy is so not hot.
Anyway. There's that. Back to looking. |
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| To Those in the Know |
[Sep. 7th, 2009|05:17 pm] |
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Does anyone know what happened with Tasha? Peter called me, flipping out, but I didn't understand a word of it and now he won't answer his phone.
What's going on?
I am too pregnant for this shit now! |
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[Sep. 4th, 2009|03:29 pm] |
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WILL ALL OF MY BABY DADDIES PLEASE STOP ALMOST DYING!
And don't be smartarses and really die either, or I'll be pissed off and go Metal Pregnant Woman on your arse.
For fuck's sake. I am fat and uncomfortable, DON'T TEMPT ME!
OHMIGOD Sylvia just did the CUTEST THING! Hhahahhahahaa dogs. |
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[Sep. 1st, 2009|04:02 pm] |
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see more Fail Blog
I dunno...I figure it takes a pretty tough guy to admit Efron-love.
IT WAS GOOD ENOUGH FOR VOLDEMORT!!!! |
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[Aug. 18th, 2009|12:08 pm] |
Aaaaaaahhhhh bad.
I'm still bummed about the Moscow show, but holding my head high and moving on...
...I'm wondering which name I should put in my babies' birth certificates under the 'father' section. It was a donor situation and I can tell you he wouldn't want his name there. And I don't think, by law, I can put Kait's name there. I don't know if it would make a difference if we made 'us' official with a civil union. I don't know...
I know, in the end, the official stuff doesn't matter because the babies will have so many people who love them. And Kait and I will be the mummies and no little piece of paper is going to change that. I also know Spectre is now all officially the other daddy of his husband Ash's son, so I know it can be done. It's just...argh. Official things suck.
And I'm leaving this public because it's real. It's an issue I'm facing, and I'm not the only one. Maybe I can put a human face on it, I suppose. So many people have to worry about things like this because the world can be such a backwards place. I am so thankful that I live in a place that allows me to marry who I want (or have a civil union, anyway) because I know other places don't even allow that. But we have a long way to go here, folks. A really long way to go. |
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[Jul. 27th, 2009|06:23 pm] |
Ich bin ein Berliner! AHHAHAHAHA okay it's cliche, but whatever. Ich liebe Berlin! The show is soon and of course I'm frigging around on my iPhone because I can't help move anything because I'm pregnant. Oh yes. For it is truth.
:D!
My girlfriend Kaitie is here with us and it's been a blast! Highlights so far include Spectre's tribute to Michael Jackson where the band joined with the guitarist from Stockholm Syndrome to play Jackson's Beat It. It was incredible, and I hope you caught it! If not, head on over to ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) in_spectre_mors or check it on YouTube.
We're having our fun, as always. So far no knickers have been stolen. I'll keep you posted, Rockstars.
( And I am gloating about the hotness that is my girlfriend, check it )
Stay tuned for more! |
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[Jul. 23rd, 2009|01:35 pm] |
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OMG THE BABIES MOVED! No one else can feel it yet BUT I CAN SO HAHAHHAHAHA SUCKERS!
They moved and I'm so happy :D
(Oh and rock on) |
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| To Those in the Know |
[Jul. 19th, 2009|03:13 pm] |
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Uhm...I hate to be the bearer of bad news, especially now, but...has anyone seen the news?
Crucified person. Jillian's MO. Have we found her yet? Because Jude is supposed to be coming back soon and I will open a can of whoopass on Rolf if she isn't safely incarcerated by the fuck then! |
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| To Those in the Know |
[Jul. 16th, 2009|08:24 pm] |
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I found a dart in the park! I showed it to Peter and he thinks it's Templar. They did just try to poison his family. Anyway, he thinks they'll be closeby because if they brought down Stephie and Thomas in the park, they would have to transport them and they're not demons or whatever.
So maybe it's not Amaris after all.
We're going to go searching at all sorts of different churches and weird-arse, religiously-freakish places. Any one who wants to help...that'd be good.
Maybe we can find them tonight. I hope so. Five minutes with the Templar is too long... |
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| To Those in the Know |
[Jul. 13th, 2009|10:48 pm] |
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Renee's here. She's sobbing in my lap... Scarlett didn't come home last night.
Thomas, Stephie, Josie, Scarlett. What the FUCK, okay?!
We have to find them. |
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| To Those in the Know |
[Jul. 12th, 2009|10:47 pm] |
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Uhm...I don't mean to alarm anyone...
Spectre, has Thomas come home yet and is Stephie with him? Because Icarus just showed up at the door alone. They went on a run with him. If he just got away from them and they're out looking, then can you tell them he's here? If not...
Well shit. |
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| To Those in the Know |
[Jul. 7th, 2009|05:44 pm] |
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I'm moving in to my second trimester already. Holy shit. Had a doctor appointment today and everything's fine. We're all healthy and happy! I'm okay to tour! I did say I was planning to do shows while I was quite pregnant and my doctor looked at me like O_O but you know...I'm me.
Everything's okay here. I've been missing my dad lately. I know wtf right? But I do. Thomas said when he died he said to tell me he did the right thing. Which is pretty...wow. I don't know. It's eeeeeiii.
I'm starving so I'm going to go make something awesome and then eat it ALL by MYSELF. |
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[Jul. 4th, 2009|05:20 pm] |
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SHIT!
Okay, so... Flynn and I were out and about and we got jumped by these arseholes. Or Flynn did. I think they were trying to separate us. Flynn was doing just fine because he's Flynn, but I flipped out and moved to protect him and I sort of...had a wingpop. And the fuckers ran away but fuck, they saw it.
I really fucking hope they don't find out who I am. Not that anyone will believe them, but fuck why am I so stupid!!? |
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[Jun. 21st, 2009|07:17 pm] |
It's been an exhausting time, rockstars. We get a day off after the show tonight! And then we're playing my hometown of Dublin on Tuesday which will be the end of the UK tour. I hope you guys have been having as much of a blast as we have!!!
The Friday show in London was awesome. We were joined by my Ethereal Facade bandmates, Tamm Morrison and Kat Whitney-De Compt, among others! It was completely kick arse! I can't wait to play London again, I love it so much!
( Ah the spoils of travelling! )
Until next time, rockstars!! And hey, if you're in Dublin, we might see you around!! |
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[Jun. 17th, 2009|08:44 pm] |
Heya, Rockstars! We're in Nottingham and it's been quite the week! we're doing shows pretty much non-stop, but that's AWESOME because it certainly keeps the energy up! I can't wait for Nottingham to have a fantastic night and then all through the UK!
And, lovely ones, some big news. Before everyone goes mad with speculation, my girlfriend and I are going to have twins. I'm pregnant, and we're both very happy and excited about the babies. That being said, I'll still be touring as long as it's safe to do so! But I might be getting larger soon enough and I just might have to slip away afterwards to avoid crowds. Just for safety's sake! Know I love you!
( Prove it with pictures! ) |
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| To Those in the Know |
[Jun. 13th, 2009|08:28 pm] |
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OH MY GOD OH MY GOD!
I just have to fish Peter out of a vat of beer he FUCKING DROWNED IN! IT WAS SO FUCKED UP! FUCK!
He's totally alive again, after vomiting beer shit for like an hour. I'm at the hospital. I'm not fucking leaving. Lorelei's safe too. He saved her from the thing and then got locked in because he's REALLY FUCKING SMART! Fuck.
I'm seriously disturbed here... Drowned people = disgusting.
This is seriously whack.
PS. Peter is TOTALLY drunk. |
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[Jun. 8th, 2009|07:41 pm] |
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On 7 June the BNP won the first of two seats in the European Parliament, when Andrew Brons was elected in the Yorkshire and Humber area by 10% of the vote. Nick Griffin was then elected for the North West region. Griffin stated that it was "a great victory... we go on from here." Meanwhile, the Labour and Conservative parties both referred to it as a "sad moment".
Well shit. Apparently electing racist fuckwits is awesome?
The BNP has a policy of tolerance to homosexuality in private, but states that homosexuality "should not be promoted or encouraged". The BNP opposed the introduction of civil partnerships in the United Kingdom. BNP spokesman Phil Edwards said homosexuality "is unnatural" and "does not lead to procreation but does lead to moral turpitude and disease". Alongside its suggestion that homosexuality "undermines social/marital cohesion by adding confusion", the BNP would make it unlawful to promote homosexuality and "return it to the closet where it belongs"
Awesome. Bring on the dark ages. Why not an inquisition or two while we're at it, eh? BTW? That up there? Not tolerance. Which, in my opinion, is not a very nice word to begin with.
Try 'acceptance', people. It's much better. Trust me, you'll like it. And people won't think you're a total dickwipe either. |
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[May. 28th, 2009|09:06 pm] |
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I was thinking about it today on the way to the doctors. My brother Dylan's 13th birthday is on Saturday and I'm so proud of him. I have another half-brother I am not proud of. I have two half-sisters I adore (one is still a BB!) and one I...well sometimes I want to kick her hard so she could maybe glean some sense from it. Because wow.
That's a lot of siblings. Because I didn't grow up with them, I always look at Thomas and his 4 brothers and sisters and think, "wow your family is huge". I have one more sibling than he does. Which is just a little strange to think about. My Mam has five kids, just like Lavinia. Only, UNLIKE Lavinia, she wasn't the most incredible mother know to man. Meaning I didn't see her for like ten years after I turned 5. She's better now. But that's why sometimes I forget.
I'm glad though. I want a big family after so long of having no one but me. Which brings me to the next point.
I had an ultrasound today. I'm having twins. |
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[May. 24th, 2009|09:13 pm] |
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You know how they say pregnancy is supposed to make you want less sex when you're in your first trimester because you're all sick and eugh? Yeah. Not so much with me. I'm sick and eugh and fucking randy as. So now the trick is finishing BEFORE I vomit.
Which you all totally needed to know!!
( And on that note, have naked pictures! )
Scott took them! Aren't they incredible! He's very talented, obviously. I think he's going to do amazing things. You should talk to my Mam, Scott! Though you're not allowed to sleep with her anymore. I know she's hot, but that ride's closed. |
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